Blogging Again

Hello, to anyone who will read. My wife has taken up blogging lately, and she is so diligent about it that she inspired me to resume my blog. I was having a hard time figuring out what to write about until I got some awful news.

In short the friend of a close friend recently had an abortion. I was alerted to the situation beforehand. My wife and I prayed. Our close friend prayed. But in the end, it happened anyway. I'm struck with a feeling of grief and helplessness. Why didn't I do more? Why didn't I help? I'm a man. I'm supposed to protect. There's also guilt there.

I decided to name the baby. I looked at gender-neutral names and came across Sage. Seemed appropriate. Lately, I've been feeling as though I'm not pushing myself hard enough - like there's a better version of me somewhere out there. This tragic event has brought that feeling into focus, and I can honestly say that I will try to keep Sage in my mind every day.

So if you're reading this, and you have the chance, pray for Sage and his/her parents. There is pain to come. Actually, it's already here. God love you all.